Why do I feel so guilty? Side effects of a Bitch Ass Nigga.

I'm a 24 year old woman trying to end a bad relationship with a 25 year old man. We'd been living together, and things went bad, I told him to leave in August. After weeks of going back and forth typical break up stuff, he hits me with "I'm back with my wife". WTF?

Didn't know he was married...

Fine fuck it, I'd already told him I was thru finding out he's married just cut thru the dragging out that usually comes with ending a relationship.

Asshole had the nerve to say then that he was coming to my home to get anything he'd left. But not that day, tomorrow was better for his schedule.

Ummm no.Stopped living here in Aug. Its Oct, been said come get it all. Oh and I just found out that the fucker is MARRIED...so no there is NOTHING here that you're gonna come get especially on you're schedule.Bitch please. I communicated this as I tossed out clothing into the trash. Bleach made the fits n shoes better.

He starts making threats...gonna send people...gonna kick in my door....gonna find me......coming in my house no matter what....gonna see me eventually...etc...

I take a moment. Inform him that I WILL call the police(ladies the ONLY time its not snitching is when calling the boys is behind a bitch ass nigga bringing some bitchassness).

I take a moment, calm down and decide if all it will take to get this BAN out my life is giving his shit back cool come get it. He's supposed to be right on the way.  6 hours later I'm thru, he had 6 weeks + 6 hours to pick all the shit up and I'm being real cool by not tossing $5K worth of beat into the rain after he made HO AZZ threats. So I tell him not to contact me again, no ties, bye.

I'd made arragnements to have my locks changed out the next morning and I was up until 1am or so. This ho comes in my fucking house while I'm asleep takes SOME of his shit and MINE and leaves stuff behind.

Now if all he'd done was act a coward then fine, I'd let that go...but to do some petty shit like take the power cord for my computer while I'm in midterms...not even the laptop itself, just the power cord, and tell me oh I needed it Ima bring it back...is so lame its funny and misses the point entirely.

I was done before the wife.

Now I'm being threatened.

Then you come in my house while I'm asleep and creep around at 4 in the morning.

I woke up and hit him like bring my stuff back get ALL your shit, then get out my fucking life.

His respeonse was I needed it and I'll bring it back after work.

I'm not getting pulled any further into this ghetto ass mess. I'm embarassed that I'm in it at all.

Fine, keep it, fuck what you abandoned in my house, I'm done. No more contact or I file restraining order.

He sent another text.

Last night he called again.

This morning I filed for a restraining order.

Why do I feel guilty?

I was more than understanding, even tho I got played and my feelings are hurt. But to have that pushed even further by creeping around my house after making threats....and creating reasons to come back...I'm cool. If any friend was going thru this I woulda told her to file...so why do I feel wrong?