Tryna make him happy

I met this fine dark skinned brotha on campus in Indiana about five months ago. He's from Chicago and I got to know him well on campus so I thought. Well we spent our summer break in Naptown at my house. We both had spent all of our money and was broke. He didn't know anything about Indianapolis and couldn't get a job because we were in school. So I would leave the house for hours conning men, sleeping with men for money. I did it before but I knew the men that I slept with. This time I didn't know them. Usually I tried getting the money before I had to do anything but sometimes it didn't work. I hated sleeping with men for money, but I had to. I would be gone for hours and sometimes I came back with only a little bit of money. He would smell me accuse me of cheating but I always denied it. Every night we fought about me leaving and getting money. I never went straight to the showere because it would look suspicious. He got everything he wanted while I suffered trying to please him. I mean don't get me wrong he would try to leave and make money and he did. Not enough for us to make it. One time he wanted to go with me to see how I really got the money. He wouldn't take no for an answer. So we both went to this strip club. He sat in the car while I went in hoping there was some fool in there wanting me. I didn't find one so I left out the side door. I didn't know what I was going to do. Well this man came out of the strip club to use his phone. We got to talking, and he wanted to eat me out. I was like ok but we have to go somewhere away from the club. I didn't want my boyfriend to find out. He ate me out in his car for 100 dollars in fifteen minutes i was back in the car feeling disgusting. But my man was happy and he was relaxed with how I made the money so fast. I gave him a bullsh*t story and that was that. For the last five months I've been doing this every weekend when we come to nap. I still argue with him and he has a habit of hitting me when something is not right. I fight him back but I'm so misrable. I just don't know how to get out of this loop.