This happened along time ago

 Iam writing this to clear my concious of something that happened along time ago. I married my wife when I was 30 and she had a 9 yr old daughter. Well she has since grown up and now has a family of her own. We see them occasionally but rarely. We are very well off and me and my wife frequently travel. I am now 51 and could easily retire but what would I do with myself. I mean you can only travel so much. Recently me and my wife was on a cruise and she remarked that me and my step daughter never bonded and I guess I no why. When she was 15 I caught her drinking and she was puking in the bathroom floor I helped her and got her cleaned up and in doing so discovered she was on a birth control pill the next day she came to me and asked me to not tell her motherabout her being sick or on the pill. I told her I would think about it. That night I rarely drink but came in drunk and went into her room. I asked her about the pills and who she had been fuking . She seemed stunned and would not answer. I got to looking at her laying there in her pantys and half shirt and just started to undress and said ok you dont want me to tell well i dont want you to tell. I got in bed with her and she did not say no and I fuekd her.  After that I would go in her room about 2-3 times a week and fuk her. That lasted about 4 months until one afternoon I pushed it a little further and led her during daylight into my office and asked she perform oral sex on me. For about the next 3-4 months I would frequently have sex with her an night and have her perform oral on me occasionally during the day when I could get her alone. In december I was in a car wreck and was trapped inside and the car caught on fire and i thought I was going to be burned alive but fireman with the jaws of life was able to free me. I was burned but nothing like it could have been. It may sound crazy but I actually thought I heard the voice of God. After that I never touched her again. I have given her and her husband and family money and been very generous. I also when I was in another state on business confessed my sins to a priest. I am somewhat at peace with what happened but know what an awful this I did. I should say that she never told me no so i justified it was ok in my own mind because i neve threatened her. I dont no where else to go with this but this is my confession.