Wish I Never Met Him!!!

Look I am a 22 year old brother and I met this little shorty at a party.  A saw him a year after we met at the party and we joked together AND we had great chemistry. But I have borderline personality disorder which made me act a lil crazy towards him in the end because he didnt want the same as me...and we stopped speakin in about Augustl..i stopped thinking about him but in the past couple weeks i been reminded of him through a tv show, a song and i saw his name 3 times within 10 minutes while in a moving car...he has an usual name...so i feel like God is tryin to tell me something or i've been cursed...i want so badly to forget this guy and it wont happen...i love him, he is right for me and i think i would be right for him if only he'd let it happen.....I WISH I NEVER MET HIM!!!