Hi... As I am writing these words, I can feel my heart cursing into dust. This is really hard for me, and I really need help. I am gay, and I have been raised in a very conservative society, my parents are not aware of this. I felt attraction to men, when I was in elementary school, but I didn’t think about it too much. I have been very hardworking person, trying to do good things because my religion says that gay people are going to hell, and in a certain way I am apologizing to God for this. I am a very sad person, and also very afraid of being left alone. I often dream myself in this beautiful house with luxury etc, but everywhere I look nobody is around, it is just me. Mornings are the worst part of the day, I wake up to realize that nobody is laying next to me... nobody knows I am gay, I have kept that secret form my family, but it is getting harder to keep up every day... I have fallen in love with this guy in my college, and he is everything I wanted plus good looking, but there is one problem, he is straight... we are just friends... it is breaking me up, every time I see him, because he doesn’t know... this is so hard for me, please help me, I am desperate...and scared to be alone…