I met this girl at the beginning of 08.  she was a real cool chick and we met through a mutual friend.  we clicked so well the day we met that we exchanged phone numbers.  we were soon talking on the phone daily and would hang out on many diffenrent occasions.   we never did anything sexual, partly because she had already told me she was married, and that her husband would be home soon from prison.  anyway, dude comes home in march.  he spent 15 yrs in lockup for homicide, got paroled 2 yrs ago. he violated his parole and had to serve out the rest of his sentence.  so now, this bruh is home for good.  his wife wanted me and him to hang out and become friends, in part because she knew i would b a good influence and also (i think) to try to use me to spy on her hubby.  well dude and i hit it off even better than she and i did!  he is a tall handsome light skinned kat with a body dat wont quit.  one night he and i are hangin, got drunk, and he decided to call me out.  he told me that he knew i was into dudes and that i had a crush on him.  i tried to play it off with a laugh, but i was shook.  i hadnt told him nor his wife that i like dudes!  he wouldnt back down from his accusations, and i finally came clean.  he told me to drive to my apt.  i was nervous, cause i didnt kno wat to expect from this nigga thats already killed before!  long story, i sucked his dick 3 times that night...and he has fucked me about 6 times since then.  the blow jobs i ahv given him over these months are too numerous to count.  i now feel guilty about screwing my homegirl's husband but dude has a 10 inch dick and i think i am in love with this bruh.  he is still a pussy hound, so he cheats on her wit mad women, but i kno as a friend to her, i hav  fuckd up.  i dont kno where to go from here!!!